I saw a woman in a store ​wearing​ a t-shirt on that said "forgive me for when I said when I was hungry." I really loved that shirt because there are many times I act in ways that I regret when my blood sugar is low. When I am hangry, I am not peaceful.
 
Of course as a yoga instructor I'm going to tout the importance of self-care when it comes to maintaining our ability to project a peaceful environment.
We can't ignore that what we're putting in our body at every level has an effect on this environment.  For example, ​the​ kind of TV and movies are we watching, what are we reading, how much grim news are we taking in, what kind of company are we keeping​ all have an impact.​ The sources of the food we are ingesting is going to make a difference as well. For example the commercial meat industry is more violent than small farm raised meat and so will hold a different vibration. Highly processed foods or food that is created or harvested by immoral measures will also hold a negative vibration, all of which is will have an impact on our ability to remain peaceful.

A few weeks ago I read a story about a coach of a under 13-year-old baseball league who ​was ​ejected from the game by the umpire for using foul language. The coach decided to punch him in the face before he left the feild and broke the umpires jaw in 2 places in front of all the spectators. Just as horrifying is that some of the parents of the kids in that coach's team yelled "he deserved it" as the umpire was being attended to by the EMTs. It's no surprise that between the pandemic and the many other tensions in the world people are not behaving as calmly as they once were. The evidence is all over the place as we witness mass shootings, war, increased gun deaths and violent crimes all across the world. 

It is difficult to not become part of the collective consciousness of violence and unrest. We know mob mentality is a real and powerful thing.  A negative collective energy can influence the individual who is not grounded in their sense of self.  Perhaps even the most doubtful can acknowledge that these "energies" influence us by recognizing that when in a peaceful place ​we ​feel peaceful, and when not in a peaceful place​, we​ don't feel peaceful. Pretty simple.

What can we do to counteract, or to pull against the effects of a negative, violent collective consciousness? Just like in tug of war, if you want to win the game you have to pull back as hard as the other team is pulling. Otherwise, you're going be pulled to the other teams side and loose. In these days of unrest and insanity we have to intentionally, with great effort, pull ourselves towards peace. If we want to make a difference in this new, and hopefully temporary, world order, we need to exert as much effort towards peace as we ​understand that energies are pulling us towards non-peace. We can't just state that we're fine, things are okay, and have it be so. Those days are over, if they even ever existed.

If you think it doesn't matter ​to the rest of the world ​what headspace you are in, think again. Imagine the ripple effect that this angry coach (a man who most likely was admired by his young team) that hit the umpire created. This happened in a playing feild filled with children who were either horrified by what they saw (maybe traumatized) or given permission to act violently against a decision that they may disagree with in the future. Then this became a news story. Now I'm sharing it with you. The EMTs, doctors and nurses who attended to the umpire were affected. ​What about the extended families of the coach​ and umpire, and the people they work with? The court case means more people will know about it and now this crazy thing has touched so many more people than just the man who was hit. 
 
 Just because we don't see the ripple effects and how its moves out into the future doesn't mean it won't happen. We can't think our energy is not influencing someone when we step into a room ​cranky, ​or when we present work that will somehow make its way out into the public. What about what you are posting on social media? What are you saying in front of your children and colleagues? If we agree that this ripple effect is true and valid, why not use it to create ​a ​peac​ful calm environment​? "I didn't mean to do that" should only be acceptable a few times. So that t-shirt I mentioned in the beginning of this post would only buy me one or two missteps. After that I should be willing to recognize that I was not self-aware enough to make sure my energy d​id ​not harm others.


We can and should contribute time and money to uplift our neighbors who have less and use our votes and voices so that our social structures offer real support.  This doesn't always work as we might have hoped​, and​ we have seen time and ​time ​again.   The only ​way​ we can make a lasting positive change towards peace is in ​by creating it ​our own minds​ first​.  So, let's get to work and clean up our vibrational fields while we are doing everything else we are doing.  Remember in this game of tug of war we have to pull the rope as hard and strong, and continuously, towards peace as we can.  

If you are interested in doing this work together, join me for the meditation intensive that is starting July 5th.  More info can be found here​

The psoas muscles are your deepest core muscles.  They run on either side of your lumbar spinal column, pass through your pelvis across the pubis and then attach to the inner thigh bones.  

The important physical functions of the psoas muscles are hip flexion (lifting your thigh bone up), hip abduction (takes the thigh bone away from the midline of the body), lumbar flexion (draws the lumbar spine forward) and external rotation (rotates the thigh bone outward).

Equally important is that the psoas is one of the first muscle responders for the flight, flight or freeze response in the body. When one feels threatened and adrenaline rushes into the bloodstream, the psoas will jump into action and will either help you run faster (hip flexion), tighten up around your organs (preparing for a fight, like armor), or immobilize you (stuck on the spot- freeze!).  Since the psoas also attaches to the diaphragm their actions will affect your breathing. When the psoas is activated it will help you breathe deeper if you are running or fighting (pulls the diaphragm down with more force), or slow your breath way down if you are going into freeze mode, like a  opossum playing dead (diaphragm movements frozen). The psoas is also known to hold emotional energy.  People have been caught off guard when they are in a psoas stretch and burst into tears.   It is a fairly regular occurance in a yoga class.

A tight psoas, especially if it is just on one side, can cause lumbar back pain, sacroiliac joint instability, nausea, weakness in the core, instability, hip pain, knee pain and shoulder misalignment. Tight psoas muscles can also cause an excess of guarding of ones emotions as well as poor sleep, poor digestion and low sexual drive.

Many people will think they have back problems when their pain is actually coming from the psoas.  It is not always obvious if the psoas is weak, tight, or in a hyper-contracted state.
Stretching is not always the best thing for the psoas, especially if it needs to be released.  


Here is a good way to both strengthen and release the psoas-

Sit on the ground with your feet about 3-4 feet apart.
Lean back slightly and support yourself with your hands behind you.
Turn your toes out at a 45 degree angle.  
Keep your knees soft. Then lift the right right leg up about 3 inches from the ground on an inhale. Exhale lower it back down. Imagine you are lifting the leg from the inner ankle, or inner knee.  Try not to compensate by using your abdominals, shoulders or the opposite leg.  It is also important not to lift the leg too high. Repeat on the other side.  If one side is more difficult to lift, that is your weaker side.  If they feel the same, and the movement is not too hard to do, walk your hands closer to your body, arch your lower back forward and try to lift the leg again.  See if one is easier than the other.  If the movement is too hard and you can not lift your leg off the ground, lay down on your back.  Have your legs the same distance apart as above and try to lift each leg. Up on the inhale, down on the exhale. Lift up only about 3 inches.
This movement is both a test to see if there is asymmetry in your psoas strength and also a way to correct it.  If one leg is hard to lift, start with 3-5 times lifting. Even if your leg does not leave the ground, you are still toning the muscle.  You might want to work the weak side twice as much as the stronger side.

You can stretch the psoas like this:
Get a stable chair (kitchen or dining room chair is best) and place it against a wall.  Stand alongside the wall and use it for support as you  put your right foot on the chair.  Sink your hips down. You can lift your back heel off the ground and have a little bend in the left knee.  Make sure that when you sink your hips down, your right knee does not extend past your right toes. If it does, step your left leg back further or your right foot forward more, or both. You want to give a lot of space between the left leg on the ground and the right foot on the chair.  When you sink your hips look for a stretch in the front of your left hip. If your left toes are facing the chair that your right foot is on, you will be stretching your superficial hip flexors. Now, if you turn your left toes out to the side at a 45 degree angle and you sink your hips you should feel the stretch on the left side closer to your groin.  That will be your psoas, and that sensation you feel will be your psoas stretching.  It is best to pulse the movement here- inhale pull your hips up, exhale sink your hips down.  5-10 pulses on each side is good. 

It is important to know that some people will not feel a strong stretch in the psoas, especially if it is weak and hyper contracted.  You may also feel it very differently on one side than the other.
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​Appreciating the completeness of  yoga solely by putting your  body into a yoga pose is like hoping t​o experience the majesty of the ​Grand ​Canyon by looking through a paper towel tube, understanding the vastness of the ocean by observing a tablespoon of water, or trying to figure out the mystery of the cosmos by viewing a photograph of a planetarium.  The more ways we can view something, and experience it directly, the closer we can come to understanding it.  Yoga is a vehicle to view, and to merge with, the true self.  The koshas are the different views (or lenses) we use.  Kosha means veils, or sheaths, and  the koshas are the veils of illusion that we view life through. 
 

There are 5 main koshas, or ​ lenses that we use to see​ the world.  Knowing what kind of veil you are looking through will help you to make more sense about what you are seeing and experiencing.  It's a bit like the "glass half full or glass half empty" scenario.  When you know ​if ​you are more of a half empty or half full person, the way you perceive the world around you will make more sense and become more predictable.  If it makes you unhappy (or the people around you unhappy) to see a half empty glass, you can actually start to​ see  the glass ​as half full if  you want to.  It takes a change in perception.  But before you change a perception, you might want to know what your perception already is, and you ​will probably want to know your other choices.​  This is not just about going around and saying things are great when you don't really think they are, or saying "it's all good" when it is not.  We are not trying to "fake it til we make it".
 
This shift in perception is like taking off your far-seeing glasses and slipping on your cheater glasses in order to read fine print.  If you don't realize that you are using the wrong eyewear to see something, you might feel helpless, hopeless, or get angry and frustrated because you can't read the text that you want to read.  And if you can't read that text, you can't get what is needed, you will not have the freedom to choose because you don't really know what your choices are.  Being someone who now has to cycle through both far seeing glasses and cheater glasses while wearing contacts, I find myself wondering what people did back in the olden days before corrective lenses were a thing.  Did they think everyone saw things blurry the way they did? What were they missing in the landscape around them and from being able to read books, or from recognizing people they passed?  Until I was in about 4th grade I thought everyone saw the blackboard blurry. Then I realized I needed glasses.  I remember crying from this realization that I could do something about not being able to see. Similarly I wonder about people who are doing asana with just their body.  What are they missing?  I did asana for many years before I "plugged in" to the subtlties of prana and the koshas, and just like when I discovered I needed glasses, I cried with joy.  My yoga practice took on a new and profoundly deep mean. So I do actually have an idea of what they are missing, just like I remember what it is like to not be able to see the blackboard in school.  

In the seminar Asana Through the Koshas we are going to study the koshas and what it may look or feel like to be perceiving things through those koshas.  We will use yoga asanas to experience the koshas and, this is the fun part, we will  experiment with viewing the asanas through these different veils (or koshas). ​ The lovely thing about learning to practice this way is that you will find a deeper level of connection with the practice and with yourself. You will find out you don't need to struggle through asanas in order to practice yoga.  ​

Interested? ​ Check out the workshop coming up this weekend, 3/5-6 AND the Subtle Anatomy workshop happening on Friday evenings 3/18 and 3/25.  Find out what is happening beneath your skin.

This new year day, January 1st, 2022,  will mark the 19th year that Yoga Loka has been in business!  It is a great accomplishment, but as I have always said, a class is only a class if a student shows up, just like a story is only a story if someone is really listening.
   
As we sail into our 19th year I want to once again thank you all for your efforts, your practice, your attention, your trust, and your stories. Everything that you have all shared with me over the years is like a precious gift, whether it was about your families, your work and hobbies, your struggles and your successes.  People sometimes ask me if it is hard to hold so many stories, but really it is an honor and a privilege to have these shared with me. One of the superpowers that has arisen from my practice over the years seems to be the ability to listen and hear when something is off and not in alignment with the story teller- whether that is because the timeline is inaccurate, the players were misunderstood (and therefore mis-cast) or the meaning of the story has not yet been understood or acknowledged by the teller. I think one of the most important things I have done in the past 19 years is to help people reframe their stories and therefore integrate them, whether that is by helping them to explore how their body is working, how the emotions are interfering, or how the importance of the story blown out of proportion, or minimized.  

One of the things that has come out of this community we share is friendship. I know some really deep ones have formed, and it is very gratifying to know that Yoga Loka was able to facilitate that.  I know it is a struggle now that we are just appearing on zoom, but never fear- we can still connect online, and after all, zoom only is not a forever-thing, it is just a for-right-now-thing.

Last week I wrote about how we have lots of workshops coming up. I hope that if you find connecting in asana classes over zoom challenging, you will consider trying a workshop or two.  The workshop format gives you a chance to ask questions and clarify what might be confusing, to connect with others, to ask many many questions, to take notes, and to rewind and play the video again to hear what you might have missed, or what you just need to hear again. And since many of these workshops are multi-day experiences, you will find a "group" does form.  You will connect in the way you need during these isolating times, perhaps even at a deeper level considering how isolated these times actually are. 

Click here to  check out the  worskhop page for the list of what is scheduled so far.  And there is more to come!  I can't wait for you to see all that is planned for 2022!  We may be living in wacky times right now, but remember that your source is always within you, and the wacky-ness of the times is really the thing that pushes us further in towards that source.  Just keep looking for the things that bring you back to your source and you will be fine. And taking that journey with others is always better (like in a workshop!).  And yes, even a workshop on hamstrings can be the thing!  You just never know, so stay alert and tranquil, and stay tuned. 

Please use this coupon code for any of the below 2022 workshops for a 22% discount at checkout. More information can be found on the workshop page:

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​After my last newsletter about integration someone asked me a great and relevant question, which was "what does it feel like to be integrated?"
Her own experience was that not being integrated felt like pieces of her body were not aligned, and things felt as though they were off kilter. I thought that sounded about right to me.

It helps to know what it feels like when you are not integrated.  What I have found with my clients, and my own self is that we may not realize we are not/were not integrated until we achieve some level of integration.  Some of us have existed in a non-integrated place for so long, it feels quite normal and so moving towards integrating requires trust and courage to know that where you are heading, even if it feels weird or wrong, you are going in the right direction. 

I believe we can equate non-integration to not being grounded.  Some people know quite clearly what it feels to be grounded, and  know once they are grounded, they are also integrated.  

To be integrated means we can store the information we are constantly getting from our senses in the right places. For example, maybe we hear a loud noise and our immediate response is that we need to attend to that noise right away. But what if that noise has come from the TV, and is really part of a movie? It has already happened, we have no control over it, it was manufactured and not only are we in no danger from it, we can't do anything about it (other than turn the TV off), and if we are able to recognize that, it can be stored in the "acknowledge it and leave it alone" file. What if we hear a noise and it is right behind us?  Is it threatening or not? Is it benevolent or dangerous?  If we are grounded at the moment we hear the sound, we will be able to store that in the right place (defend yourself, run, embrace, etc). If we can store the noise  in the proper place, for example it needs  to be attended to, or filed away for use later, or discarded, we can integrate the sensorial experience into right action.  If we can not do that because we  are overloaded (information came too fast and we are confused) or we aren't physically healthy and we are depleted of energy (it takes the energy to discern and to recognize the source and proper response of the noise), if we are overloaded because other things have used our discernement muscle to capacity, we will instead respond in the way that "saved our life" once. This may cause us to shut down, or make a very wrong decision about how to respond, or we flood with emotion (think about a glass filled with water and you try to add more).

Creating space when you realize you can't integrate something (or everything!) will help.  You can make space literally in your body by physical movements (walking, dancing, yoga and other exercise). You can make space in your brain by stepping back and getting distance from the situation so you can see things a bit more clearly, especially to see how this thing may affect you personally.  We tend to think that things affect us personally first, then on second or third glance we realize it really doesn't, or at least not in the way we think it does. 

If we can make it a practice to seek integration we will see that all information, stressors, fears, can be sorted out and attended to, when our container is fit to do so.  When I shared several weeks ago that I needed to take a step back, my intention was to give time for everything to find its place in my being.   I do not want to shut out the news of tragedy, difficulty, pain and suffering.  I just needed to stem the flow a bit so everything could find its place. I have made some shifts to the amount of information I take in (yeah, it's a really intense time now, right?) but I still want to be engaged and aware.  And to do that means, for me, more time in practice and more time doing what I love, which is serving this community.    

This is a quote I recently heard during a lecture by yoga therapist Mindy Eisenberg. When I heard it I realized it summed up my experience since I first started practicing yoga, and is one of the things that has kept me at it for 35 year. Being in community heals so much of the fundamental pain and suffering we experience as humans.


Our culture has always been a culture of isolation. Now with the pandemic, our isolation is amplified. Some of the struggles that occur when we are separated from community may not be so obvious. Maybe you are struggling to finish something because you just can’t find the inspiration to complete the project. You might be letting your self-care slip by the wayside, and you might be exercising less and eating more. Maybe you find you have less energy and zest for life. Community (or Sangha, which is Sanskrit for like-minded community) can increase prana, and this prana is the fuel that pulls us up and out of tamasic (lethargic) place.
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Being inspired by others in your community can shift your perspective and lead to an uprising of joy. Experiencing joy from other peoples sucess is an amazing healing tonic. Our ability to enjoy that is a good sign of unity. Arriving at the non-dualistic experience which is attributed to a yoga practice is ironically often best understood by dualistic observation and engagement. Before we can go off to the forest or the mountains and live the life of a sattvic (harmonious) renunciate, we need to be able to look at all the mirrors our community holds up for us and see how we are reflected in the faces of our neighbors, friends and relations. In other words, we need to heal the spaces between "me" and "them" and in doing so we can begin to understand "me" and "them" is actually one and the same.


Zoom and other online platforms have become the medium for community gathering since the start of the pandemic. We really are able to transmit our concern, care and compassion for each other through zoom. I have experienced this. It may not be optimal, but it's what we have now. And it is also a matter of perspective. If we want to connect, we will connect, whether its over zoom, face to face or behind masks. So don't be concerned that connection to community wont happen over the internet, and try not to get stuck in the fact that it is not happening the way you want it to, or the way it was 2 years ago. We adapt because that is what we do - we are designed to adapt. If we look back at history, even let's say just 60-100 years ago, we can see how well humans can adapt and integrate the unthinkable into their lives. 


Remember: we are a family; we are a team. We can move through this pandemic together. No, we NEED to move through this together as humans. The first step is to show up and come together. Then we can work towards our common goal. In the context of our yoga practice, part of the goal is to care for ourselves so we can care for others. When we care for others we become less separate from others. As that separation lessens, we are being healed. This takes us back to community being medicine.


Many people over the last few months have asked me how I managed to keep the doors to Yoga Loka open given the fact that many similar small businesses have closed. I attribute this to us being a strong community that recognizes we are a team working together. Parts of the team may be focused on healthy aging and maintaining a strong body, or balancing and quieting their minds, or lifting the vibration and healing energy of the universe. We instinctively know we cannot do what we are doing alone. Even if you have never see the other people in your asana or meditation class face to face because you started after the lockdowns, or you are coming to private sessions, you are part of the team, the family and the sangha. We are all serving each other by contributing positive energy and health to the whole, and by lessening our negative energy output which inevitably effects others. 


The upcoming winter months are looking dismal, but don't give up! If you splinter off, you are without community. If you haven’t been for a while, come back! Sometimes we need to step away from the team to realize how much the community supports us. If you can’t afford to attend classes, let me know- we need as many people working towards a peaceful environment as possible! Don’t let finances keep you isolated. You are needed for the wholeness to happen. Your participation, in any community, is an essential ingredient in the healing balm this world needs so much. 

 ​Ask a realtor the best way to invest in real estate and they will say​ what matters is​ location, location, location. Ask a comedian what the secret is to good comedy they will say timing.  A chef will tell you the secret to a good meal is to use the best ingredients.  

If you ask a meditator what the secret is to a quiet mind, or a yogi what the secret is to their peace of mind, they will tell you "steady, consistent practice over a long period of time" (Yoga Sutras 1:12, 2:28) is the key to success. 

Th​is secret ingredient is probably why so few people have a quiet, peaceful mind!  I was intrigued by the title of this article, "Spiritual Bootcamp for Brain Health" by John Douillard.  It is a short article, and in it you will read about some practical and measurable side effects of spiritual practice​. These benefits may inspire you want to do a spiritual practice. ​​What do we do ​with this​ inspiration? The word Bootcamp, to me, implies ​really ​hard work​.  If you follow through with the work, you get results.  If you don't, you won't.  It is really that simple.  Location, timing, ​good ingredients, and consistency.  Those are the ​components of ​an effective Spiritual Bootcamp.  (Here is another interesting short article about training your mind)

It is hard to stay​ as​ dedicated as ​needed to get the results on your own.  The camp part of bootcamp suggests community.  Don't get upset with yourself when you can't do it on your own. It is not really expected that you do ​this independently at first.  You need guidance, constant inspiration, and the important thing is, you need to know HOW to do it​ because​ the sequence of steps is important, and can vary depending on the person.

I would like to relate a quick story to illustrate what I wrote above.  Our family got a dog in September. This is a new thing for me, I never had a dog before and so didn't know much about training one.  We did some reading, enrolled him in doggie kindergarten, and tried as best as we could to follow what we learned.  We found it hard to stay consistent, but fortunately our guy is well behaved and cooperative.  However the one thing we didn't ​master was how to call the pup back if he ran off after a deer in the woods, which happens to be his favorite pastime.  It is also a scary one, because sometimes the deer runs across a street, or far enough into the woods that we lose track of ​him. We made up some stuff to try to get him to listen, and the three of us did different things, and you guessed it, ​it wasn't work​ing​.  I mentioned something to a client of mine, who happens to ​be a dog train​er and she pointed me to a printed resource that I purchased. I made the whole family study it.  Poe t​he pup was grounded for 3 weeks while we all p​racticed the protocol for ​"​reliable recall​"​.  The pamphlet (which to me was like the yoga sutras of dog training) was explicit- you must do it this way for a long period of time.  Each step was outlined.  ​If it doesn't work the author wrote you needed to reread the pamphlet and do it again because you missed some steps. We followed it, and bam! it worked.  ​We know that we have to stay diligent and practice in between walks, and that we still need to reread the pamphlet.  We can see when he starts to falter.  This is not a one time thing​, he is growing and maturing, and he forgets, and sometimes desire to run over rides his current level of training.  Just like the mind and meditation, the training needs to evolved along with the practitioner if peace is desired. There are just too many distractions and enticements in this world of form, whether they are deer running in the woods, or fretting over an old story. ​